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Guess who is sleeping my bed at the moment?



NO - it's not Orlando (darn) it's the boyfriend.



He showed up the other night at 3:15 am while I was watching the Amityvile Horror and scared the holy bejeesus out of me too. (ha ha)



We managed to have a little chat yesterday and everything is cool for the time being.



I decided to quit taking this relationship seriously (with a guy who shows up at three in the morning - how can one be serious?) and just worry about the degree.



That made all the difference in the world...

I am pretty depressed at the moment. The guy that I have been dating may be lying to me about things. That makes me feel a bit paranoid and upset. Truth be told I think he is biding his time until his old girlfriend gets her act together so they can get back together. That just makes me sick.



Here's the deal. I was cleaning up my hard drive and came across some files that were from his mobile phone which he sometimes uses the bluetooth thing wih to charge here. So I look at the files to make sure they can be safely deleted and, lo and behold, I find many text messages that were loaded to my system on Feb. 10. No sure these messages may be 'old' but they really hurt to read. The ones to the supposed ex were rather explicit and I assure you he has never sent me any message even close to resembling these. I am rather devastated but have no idea how to approach him on this.



Besides that - he makes me feel like I am a problem. Not good...



My heart is rather sore at the moment....

What happened to my portfolio?



It took a long time to create...



WAH WAH WAH